A Me for Me…PART ONE

Who holds space for the healer?

The truth? No one. And that’s not a complaint…..it’s a reality check.

Hire a therapist, chile. Because most folks don’t have the capacity, and you can’t take that personally. You can’t make it mean something about your worth or your relationships. You’ve just gotta move the f*ck on. Get the support you need and do what you can to get past the moment.

In my latest storm, I came face to face with how special I am. I really have the ability to hold so much….for myself and for other people. I’m a transmuting Queen, period. But here’s what I had to finally admit: Thehoodhealer persona….while powerful, attracts people who are often deeply entrenched in their healing identity. And the truth is… many of them don’t have the capacity to reciprocate the energy I truly deserve.

Because they’re going through something….and maybe never got out of it.

And while I honor every soul and value every relationship across the spectrum, I had to be real with myself: I can’t keep holding space for energies that can’t hold me in return. I deserve to be held….by strong, solid, resilient people who move through the world with grace and power like I do. People who don’t collapse every time life asks something of them. People who can meet me where I am, not just take from what I give. People with the capacity!

Every season of my life has been soul-designed and divinely curated to prepare me for what’s next. And as I’ve been reflecting on the life I truly want to create, it’s become clear: I have to leave one identity behind to fully step into another.

March showed me that I’m the strongest person I know. And while that might sound empowering, it actually broke my heart a little. Because I had to ask… what about me?

What about when I need a lifeline? What about when I fall apart?

I’ve been carrying so much for so long. And for a while now, I’ve been feeling the quiet nudge to depart from this current version of myself….this container, this community, this offering. It no longer reflects where I’m headed. If I’m being honest, I’ve outgrown it.

I want more for myself. And you can’t soar when you’re constantly surrounded by energy that’s clinging, needing so much of you. It’s draining. So I’m closing this chapter, lovingly and completely, to make room for the next. A bigger one. A brighter one.

I know some people might be surprised or even confused by this transition. They look at me and what they perceive as my career and can’t imagine why I’d walk away. But when you’re an innovator, when you’re mutable, when you’re truly led by God… you have to evolve. You have to be willing to release identities that feed your ego more than your spirit.

Because even when it’s spirit work, if we’re staying in something out of habit or because of the investment we’ve made, rather than the inspiration it brings us…it’s no longer service. It’s just an ego attachment.

So after July, I’ll be wrapping up this chapter. These kinds of readings, this role, this rhythm I’ve been in for the past 8 years…..it’s time. I’m stepping into a nu version of myself. Nu offerings that I’m still mapping out. A nu location, that I’m still looking for. And Nu products, that I’m still creating. A whole nu ting. And that excites me. Like really excites me!

It’s not an ending. It’s an expansion.

Because the me I’m becoming? She’s already waiting on the other side.